Camie

Tonight is the last time I get to see Camie play as a UVU Wolverine. It's the end of an era. I'll never forget...

Crossroads 4D

Here am I
Sitting at the crossroads
Of Time and Space
Seeing things that most others
Can only imagine.

Trying to figure out
That of which I seek
Is truly what is best
For not only me
But all those whose destinys
Depend on me.

I know not
Which path to take
For whatever I do choose
Comes with its own consequences.

The consequences effect
Not just me
But everyone dear
And near to me.

The guidance I seek
Is denied to me
Because of the position
That I have been destined
To fulfill.

Nothing nor nobody
Can help me decide
But in the end
I will be led
By Love...

Turning Points

I feel like i'm at a crossroads in my life. Once again... Crazy how that happens. So i'm jobless but I am a year away from graduating from college so i'm pretty much set on my course. Gonna apply to the FBI next year... Yeah that's pretty much all I've got for now.

Insanity

I AM GOING CRAZY!!! My hormones are through the roof. I can't sleep and I can't focus... Aaaarrrggghhh!!! Damn physical needs...

Weird Being Alone

So I find myself a little lonely. I think I need a woman in my life who is not overwhelming drama or super-clingy. I don't think I could handle that anymore. But I guess I'll have to be patient. For now I would just like a little booty :)

It's Over

I am so tired... Sheesh. I think it got me pretty sick sleeping out there. I haven't been that cold in a long time. So we kept pretty busy and it made the time pass quickly which is what I'm very grateful for. I was a sullen ass either, I was laughing a lot. Weird for army huh?

So Cold

I cannot believe how cold it is out here. the temperature is like 45 but with the wind chill it takes it down into the low 30s. Unbelievably Brrr...

Rainy

So I got to sleep under a tent in the rain last night. I slept under a seam so I got drops of water on my head most of the night... That was fun... Not! I hate sleeping in the field.

All Gone

Guess what Christy... Our friendship is truly over... I finished off all the blue pixie sticks.

Calmed and Poised

My life is slowing down to a crawl... I never thought I'd see the day. I do however have to be careful not to become lethargic. I need to go back to school.

As for my dating life... THERE IS NONE... hehehe. Rare, but enjoyable. Right now I'm in love with Call of Duty 4. It keeps me sane. I also am enjoying my lakers... even though they're rarely on TV out here. Maybe, now that they're good again they'll be on TV more often.

No more Christy by the way. She texted me on Sunday, during the worst part of Army and it just made me hard in the heart... Almost to the point of hating her. I will never allow her back into my life. She poisons anyone she is around. I realize that now.

Here's to revelations...

Goodbye

Goodbye Christy. I'm sick of the drama. This time there are hard feelings and I'm pissed at you. You called me an ahole and told me to go to hell. You said you hate me... Well... I Don't Care.

Second String

Today, I definitely feel like Second String... And so the day of wrath continues. Don't ask... I won't explain.

Tired

I'm tired of my dad and his girlfriend. They wake me up at all hours and give me headaches... sleeplessness... Not to mention she is ruining his life. This is complete bullshit and I hate it. She dumps him when he doesn't pay her bills... How fucked up is that?! She is the spawn of Satan to me... *sigh*

Single

Kinda weird being single again... But there is less stress than being in a relationship. Time to play again...

Transformers

I do have to say that transformers is probably the best movie of the last 10 years... Everyone needs to go see it. NO EXCEPTIONS!!!

Migraines

I am so tired of migraines. I was awoken early (on the one day I was looking forward to sleeping in all day...) by a migraine. An hour after I woke up I was so sick that I took a pill called Maxalt and it altered all of reality for me. Right now I am up and about because the bed kept spinning. I hate migraines... My poor mother has had one for almost 10 straight years. I don't know how she does it because when the pain gets to this level for me it puts me in bed. Grrr... I hope it doesn't continue like this for the rest of my life.
As for today I don't have much planned. So I guess everything is gonna work out. Maybe I'll get to play computer games... Right. Like I can look at the computer screen for long. Speaking of which, see ya. I can't do it anymore. Wish me luck in my chemically induced alternate reality.

Destiny, Laying Low, and Reconstruction

So I've been reviewing what is seen as my destiny... and it is a very cluttered one with a lot of action. I guess I've always known that though, every since I was young. Everyone else pretended that they were gonna save the world, I always knew that I was gonna do my part to actually save it. So I have a rough and tumble future ahead of me and anybody who knows me well should know that there is nothing that can change it.

For the time being I am just laying low, staying out of everyone's way. I have to lay low or I'll end up being caught in the middle of something unpleasant. I have a year left before I have to kick it into high gear. So... As I said... I'm laying low.

Let the reconstruction of everything begin. And oh it is happening.

Army

Sitting here, aching, tired, migraine. What a weekend. Army started at 5:30am yesterday. It was too early. My entire body has been messed up since then. First thing that I found out is that my leader had an attack that was similar a heart attack and was hospitalized. The second in command is going to prison soon so I think that he no longer cares about coming to army so that left me as the senior ranking individual. We went to the ranges to shoot and I got done pretty quickly but a lot of people didn't so we waited around all day until almost all of them finished. We left and went back to the armory where we turned our weapons in and then were sent home. I spent the rest of the night relaxing until I fell asleep. We went back this morning to run the physical fitness test. I passed for the first time this year. It's nice to be in the clear at least for a couple of months. Until WLC. *sigh* I'm not looking forward to 2 weeks of being yelled at by men with small penises. Anyways we took until 11:30 and then we began cleaning our weapons. That was how we spend most of the afternoon. Cleaned weapons and watched movies on my laptop. Lots of people were drooling over my laptop. It was funny. Our cleanup wasn't much, but then they made me do an after action review... Paperwork. Not my favorite thing. Now I lay here on my back and hurt. I'm on plenty of drugs to help ease my migraine and muscle aches. Well, I'll be back to my Babylon 5 now...

Post Birthday

So I started off my birthday by going out with my friend Jason shooting. We took a couple of Christmas decorations that I got from Kirkland's. Ceramic snowmen were blown apart by rifles and shotguns. We had a lot of fun taking them out. A couple of angel candlesticks as well. We had a blast.
Then I went home and watched the new James Bond that my cousin got for me. It was then that Christy contacted me again and I invited her to go bowling with us that night. Lizzy told me that it would be fine, so I invited her. When she got to my house you could see that she wasn't exactly at ease. She was pretty nervous but we weren't gonna ruin my birthday with any fireworks and we had 6 months apart from each other. So we all went bowling and then Lizzy started to have a little anxiety because I was paying a lot of attention to Christy bc we were at ease with each other. I felt so bad and I didn't want her to feel like she was losing me. So I stuck close to her for the rest of the night. We bowled 4 games and they snuck out and got me a cake to embarrass me. Silly heads... I won the last two games.
When we got home Christy stuck around for about 20 minutes then took off and went dancing. Lizzy stayed and drank a little to ease her nerves. My poor baby. I'm sorry that Christy stressed you out so bad :(

Yes/No Game

Rule #1:If you open this you GOTTA take it.

Rule # 2:You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks

Rule # 3:you can only answer " yes " or " no "

Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
A: yes

Q: Been arrested?
A: no

Q: Kissed someone you didn't like?
A: yes

Q: Do you like someone?
A: yes

Q: Do they know?
A: yes

Q: Held a snake?
A: yes

Q: Been suspended from school?
A: no

Q: Been fired from a job?
A: no

Q: Sang karaoke?
A: yes

Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
A: yes

Q: Laughed until you started crying?
A: yes

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
A: yes

Q: Kissed in the rain?
A: yes

Q: Sang in the shower?
A: yes

Q: Sat on a roof top?
A: yes

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
A: yes

Q: Broken a bone?
A: no

Q: Shaved your head?
A: yes

Q: Played a prank on someone?
A: yes

Q: Had/have a gym membership?
A: yes

Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
A: yes

Q: Shot a gun?
A: yes

Q: Donated Blood?
A: yes

Q: Had your heart broken?
A: yes

Q: Broken someone's heart?
A: yes

Q: Do you like someone on you top friends?:
A: yes

REPLY THEN REPOST AS THE "yes/no game"