February's End

So we are at the end of the month. It's gone pretty fast and been an interesting ride. My trip from Colorado was fairly interesting. High speeds trying to get over the mountain passes before nightfall. I drove the entirety of the trip because Christy was sick and is not comfortable with driving at night, so I ended up driving all 8 hours. Which was ok, but it exhausted me. So yesterday I was pretty much useless. I ended up with Christy at the end of the day and we spent some more time together. She's amazing.

A Good Week

This has definitely been a good week. I spend Valentine's Day making dinner for Christy and then I spent most of the week with her. On Friday we departed for Colorado to visit my family. It was a rough night because the pass over the mountains was insanely icy, but it was good after we got past all those passes. I drove into Denver and it was pretty easy. We slept most of the morning yesterday and talked the afternoon away. Then we visited with some old friends of the family who wanted to see me, who haven't seen me for a good decade. Today I got to visit with my godmother (a catholic thing). I haven't seen her since 2003. We spent a long while catching up and her husband talked to Christy most of the time. It was fun. She wanted to see me so bad and I obliged her. Christy and I are getting along really well. We just keep getting closer. I love her so much and I let her know that. Have a wonderful rest of the weekend everybody.

My Friend!!!

Oh My, I have found my friend, Mr. Everclear here in Utah County. He missed me and I missed him...

"Regret makes you old and bitterness poisons the ones around you" - One Tree Hill

So Christy and I tried a relationship. It didn't work. 5 days before it was officially over. She didn't like and neither did I. I love kissing her, I love holding her, and I love her, but she was kinda rude to me. That I did not like. I couldn"t even say a sarcastic remark and it was taken the wrong way.

So that's what it's been. There has been drama, there has been fighting, and it is still going on. She doesn't want to talk to me. So, I go on, do my thing and see what is happening. I don't know what else to do. It's almost like there is something wrong with me. That's how it feels sometimes. But, I wasn't being mean, except for when I yelled at her and told her what she was saying to me was bullshit. That was it. I can only take so much before I pop. Christy and I are supposed to go out to see my mom in Colorado, but who knows if that's gonna happen. Worse yet, we're supposed to have Valentine's dinner. But I don't know about that.

Needless to say I'm sad. I'm losing my best friend.