Things You Need to Know About Me

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Chris!

1. Never store Chris at room temperature!
2. The eye of an ostrich is bigger than Chris.
3. The canonical hours of the Christian church are matins, lauds, prime, terce, sext, none, Chris and compline.
4. It takes 17 muscles to smile, and 43 to frown at Chris!
5. Ancient Greeks believed earthquakes were caused by Chris fighting underground!
6. The National Heart Foundation recommends eating Chris at least three times a week.
7. The International Space Station weighs about 500 tons and is the same size as Chris.
8. Chris has 118 ridges around the edge.
9. Chris can taste with his feet.
10. Ancient Chinese artists would never paint pictures of Chris.

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I got this one off of Megan's Blog.

A Choice

I want Savanna

Seeing in the Dark

Today is a dark day. It sucks because I am so unpleasant when I'm like this. The only thing I feel like doing is killing. I guess these moods would be wonderful for my time that I spend in the Army or when my carrer in the dark side of law enforcement is in full swing, but these days in civilian, everyday life are dangerous for me. I don't want to be around anybody, I just want to put myself in a corner and avoid contact. I don't want to say anything bad to anybody, I don't want to offend anyone. Last time I was in one of these moods Christy called me and it didn't turn out too well. She didn't want to talk to me the whole weekend, but she ended up coming to see me anyways and I made it up to her. She ended up adoring me again, but I don't want to be this way. And people always tell me "Well if you were doing all the things you were supposed to be doing, staying active in the church, days like this wouldn't exist." But guess what, the deeper I go into the church, the more days like this I end up having. So I have to sit on the sidelines so I don't feel overwhelmed. Someday I'll be able to control it better, but I am still young and have a hard time with the darkness within. And I know it is within, because it has been there as long as I can remember. I was afraid of the dark for the longest time because of it, but in reality I was really scared of what lies within. I know it is one of those days because my heart feels like it is being squeezed. Like something is trying to evict my soul. I have to maintain the balance between good and evil, inside myself.

Weekly Update

So the last couple of weeks have definitely been interesting. I've been running on fumes for the last week. I had Friday off, but it wasn't nearly enough for me. A week of work and a weekend of Army. So I'm looking to take Friday off again so I get 3 days straight off to catch up. I have Army again on the 4th and 5th. Ugh... This last weekend I went to Army and we did a bunch of paperwork, and I got the flu shot. Last night while I was working my 12 hour shift yeaterday, I started to feel pretty sick. I am looking forward to spending some time with Christy tomorrow and this weekend. I'm so used to spending my weekends with her, so this last one pretty much sucked. Everything is going good. I'm just tired.

She Hates Me

Met a Girl
Thought she was grand
Fell in love
Found out first hand
Went well
For a week or two
Then it all came unglued
In a trapped trip
I can't gripnever thought
I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

She fucking hates me
Trust
She fucking hates me
La, la, la, la
I tried to hard
And she tore my feelings
Like I had none
And ripped them away

She was queen
For about an hour
After that shit got sour
She took all I ever had
No sign of guilt
No feeling of bad, no

In a trapped trip
I can't grip
Never thought
I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

She fucking hates me
Trust
She fucking hates me
La, la, la, la
I tried to hard
And she tore my feelings
Like I had none
And ripped them away

That's my story
As you see
Learned my lesson
And so did she
Now it's over
And I'm glad
'Cause I'm a fool
For all I've said

She fucking hates me
Trust
She fucking hates me
La, la, la, la
I tried to hard
And she tore my feelings
Like I had none
And ripped them away

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
Trust
La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
Trust
And she tore my feelings
Like I had none
She fucking hates me

I love this song by Puddle of Mudd

Calmed Down

So I think I might be talking to an empty audience, but it's all good. I got all of my school stuff settled, it was all their fault. So at this time they are reinstating my scholarship, and I am off of Academic Probation. That is where I'm gonna stay too. No more messing up. I am much more comfortable with school this semester. I think it is the feeling that almost all of my generals will be completed after this one and I should have my Associate's at the end of the summer. I'm gonna be a Junior in the fall! Finally. I started college in Fall 2001. I should be graduated after Spring 2008. Then I head off to get my master's. I've decided I don't stop until I get my master's. Then I go find a job and begin working on my doctorate. Imagine me, with a PHD. Scary, huh? Hehehe. I've got a long road ahead of me. If I had been smart, I would've graduated High School with an Associate's...

Total Aaaaaargh!

So the new year is not so hot. I found out that my scholarship has been withdrawn and so I get to pay this semester out my pocket, unless I can sweet talk the financial advisors... It sucks though. I want to go, but if I have to fight every step of the way, I'm probably just gonna withdraw. I'm sick of fighting. Christy wants me to press on, but I got even more demoralized when I found out I had a registration hold on me last night. So I am getting extremely frustrated. I can't wait till all this shit is over. Aaaaargh!

New Year & School

So it is the new year and school has started once again. Oh, yay I've missed it. Right. So I've only had two classes and I already have two homework assignments. Yikes. Stupid generals. BUT... after this semester I only have to complete math for the end of my generals. I think I'm gonna get it done this summer and I will most likely have my associates. The first person on my dad's side to get one. On my mom's side everyone but my mom has a degree.

So New Year's went off without a hitch. The only thing that sucked about it was that I was in Orem and Christy was in Layton. We decided next year we will be at the same party. Shorty drank for the first time ever. The only person who drank more than him was my dad, and Shorty didn't even get a buzz. Too many painkillers over the years. Don got moody, I got hazed, my Dad was drunk and blew up a bottle rocket in his face, my aunt got loud and obnoxious, her husband relaxed, and Jason refused to drink, but he did get so tired that he was acting like a drunk. (He had too much fun making out with his new love interest the next day.)

Well that's all I have for now. 5 more semesters...