An Okie Weekend

So I'm going to Oklahoma this weekend to visit Courtney. Random. I leave Friday and come back Monday. I can't wait to see her. My girl. I miss her so much and it hasn't even been 3 weeks.

This is how we do it...

So things are starting to calm down for me. I'm starting to meet different people. I love sitting down in the hot tub at night conversing with different people, seeing all the hotties coming through. Oh it's so nice. If I just had more time in my life, I could fully enjoy the fruits of this place.

So people have been talking to me lately. I am totally enjoying it. Thank you everyone for giving me support during this rough time.

Space ( )

Oh, I'm tired. Maybe that's why I'm so down. Poor Courtney is having such a hard time in Oklahoma. The drama back here has gone with her over there and I feel so bad. I wish I could just whisk her away to some far off place, where no one would find her. I wish she would let me do it. But she wants to do the right thing. I learned a long time ago doing the right thing while sacrificing yourself, is no way to go. So I learned to take care of myself first.

So life is too hectic right now. I just want it to settle. Ugh.

"Very Interesting Mr. Bond..."

So I had an action packed day to say the least. From the moment I got up. I tried to cross the University Bridge, but that looked futile so I decided to go get Breakfast in American Fork. Then I went to work for 6 1/2 hours. Trying to clean up the back so I have a relaxed day tomorrow. Then I went from there to the apartment, but before I even got there Ellie was texting me, asking if she could come down. I said yes and she showed up 20 minutes later with Danielle. So then I jetted off to school, did my time. Then I came back and spruced myself up and headed off to Layton to chill with Amelia (I would tell you what we did, but that will be on an one on one basis. And no, nothing dirty.) Amelia is so freaking fun that it makes my head spin. She reminds me of me, 7 years ago and a heck of a lot hotter. But here's the kicker, she wanted me to come see her. I didn't even start the conversation that day, she did. It was nice for once not to have to start and carry the conversation with a girl. Unfortunately she has a boy (That's usually how it goes...) so I have no game plan. She's coming down on Friday too. I'm so excited, it's gonna be fun...

Oh Baby

Chris $ is officially in pain. His room overlooks one of the two hot tubs on the premises. At this moment 3 very attractive young blonde females are in bikinis behind my head. I don't know whether this is paradise or hell. We'll soon find out won't we? So I didn't finally get all of my stuff put away until today. I have so much stuff, but I'm the equipped one (non-dirty peoples).

So all of you are invited to come. Plenty of hunks around here too for you girlies. It's gonna be fun. Bring your swimsuits. There's plenty of semi-summer left (I personally will sit in the hot tub during lightning and rain.) So grab everything you need and come on down to Parkway Crossing aka Partyville, now renamed to Postalville in my honor...

Come see us.

Lines

So here I am waiting in line at Parkway Crossing, waiting to get my key to my apartment. Waiting, just waiting. Ryan's starting to get anxiety, he just wants to get it over with. There's a U-Haul sitting in front of my house. We just want to get it over with. Be done with this. My house has been torn up all weekend and I finally got it all packed up last night. Now I just have to move all that shiz into the apartment. The line hasn't movedin the last hour. They really are not any good at this. You think that they'd have everyone they could to work, but I don't think they know what to do. Oh, this is the fun life (eyes rolling).

Well we'll see how it goes from here...

Behind Blue, I Mean Brown Eyes

Yesss! Okay, Chris $ spent the last three days working and partying, and it was fun. There were some rough moments, but overall I had fun. Some friends of Christy's came down from Layton and we were up till 3am every morning. Didn't spend one night in my bed. So you know that I was having too much fun... $ style. Naturally I didn't get any packing done, so I'm rushing it now. Luckily I was on the phone most of the day, so I could talk to her and get stuff done. Otherwise I tend to get distracted. Thank you Courtney. Tomorrow I just have to pack up my final stuff. I once again found that I can survive off of very little sleep. I will admit I was ornery yesterday, but it did mark the longest I have gone without seeing Courtney since the day we met. 1 week and counting. It sucks being away from someone you care about so much. But it does make the time we spend together so much more precious.

So we are so ready to move in. The anticipation is absolutely killer. Ugh. That first day will be interesting. A place to call my own. And I can kick people out without them running to my dad to have it overturned (not like it's ever happenned, but you never now). Less than 48 hours till it's all official. Yesss!!!

So Lonely

Contrary to popular belief, I am a lonely person. All the girls I hang out with just want to be friends. It's really working to my disadvantage at this point. You know who I really want at this point? Savanna. She is so sweet. I had a hard time keeping my mouth shut about how hot she was today. Oh my. Hopefully she didn't see how I was looking at her today, because I wasn't exactly subtle today. Ouch! Just thinking about her is hurting. I'm ready to move and go to school so I don't have to think about such things...

Yup

Well this is the Dilly-O. I did have a horrible time last night, due to the fact that I am lonely, and I feel out of place at this point in time. I was having a horrible time last night. And I did put up an interesting blog. It was funny. Sorry Kelly, I didn't mean sound rude. I apologize. I appreciate everyone reading my thoughts. It makes feel like people know I exist. Listen to Me!!! I sound so insecure... Grr... Buck Up.

Young'n's

Omigosh. Young girls are killing me. Like the 16-17 year old range. They're all so cute and I can't get anywhere near them. Friends only. My 5 year rule is definitely gonna be put to the test this year. I set a rule 4 years ago that I wouldn't go beyond the 3 year range, but that was broken so quickly. It took only a month. But now 5 years. Aye-Yi-Yi. With girls like Kelly and Lauren around, it makes me want to amend the rule again...

Unexpected Effect...

Here is a letter that I was given today by a guy who is leaving my army unit after 8 years of service, I've only know him 5, but this was totally unexpected:

Chris,
Long have I enjoyed serving around you. There are times when you know exactly how to break the tension w/ the right humorous comment. I thought I would leave you with a few thoughts as I prepare to leave the unit & probably the Armed Forces.
I remember the first time we met vividly, or at least, when you came back from basic training. You were so new and waiting for someone to lead and take charge. That's how you seemed to me anyway, so hopeful and wanting. I'm sorry that the leadership wasn't there. It must have been hard for you to come down to that realization. I know you've become cynical towards the leadership, and I really don't blame you for it. But try, every once in a while, to have a little bit of hope. Hope that things will get better, that that life will improve, and hope that the command staff will get a damn clue. That last one may be a bit of a stretch, for all of us. Additionally, dont get stuck in the rut of HHC life. They're never going to promote us, so go somewhere where they will. It might be hell for a while, but it can't be worse than Iraq. You have the seed of good leadership within you. You could be the next Captain McNeil so easily. I know it's there. I can see it. Unlock that potential, run with it, and you will go farther than you could possibly imagine.
A few final thoughts. We lived in a tent, shared meals & missions, got into trouble (remember the shower incident w/ Tallerico in Iraq?), all this and more we have done together. Even before we left for Iraq, I knew I could always count on you, Poulson, and Ray to watch my back if we ever had to. And until Iraq, I never thought that would be tested. But it was. You, YOU!!, had my back when it was absolutely needed. You really did, and I don't know if there was enough thanks that I can give to you for that. But I will say this: I owe you one.
Lastly, you can never know the measure of a man until you have seen his actions. I have seen your actions, and they are mostly good. Should I die before you, I should like to stand as a witness for you before the Judgement Bar. For, because of your actions and the things we have been through, thou art my brother forever more. I really mean that. Thanks for the memories.

Spc. Nathan Shumway

Wow. I can still make a difference. You have restored my self-esteem in my abilities to raise the quality of life for others. Thanks Nate. Now I owe you one.

"You really like those doughnuts don't you?; Have you seen the food they just tried to make us eat?" - Spc Allred and Chris $ shortly after Army Lunch

Yeah, so I went and saw the Dukes to today. That's right, I saw the Dukes of Hazzard. Against every recommendation and critical review. And you know what, I liked it. Not just because of Jessica either (although she was the only reason I needed to go), the movie was silly and totally fun, not serious. I'm a little tired of the serious life right now, I think people need to screw around a little more. Live and Let Live. It may not have been true to the original show, but it definitely put a modern twist on the show. And my, Oh my, Jessica Simpson is fine. F-I-N-E. Fine. But then again I am a sucker for those blondes...

So Courtney has called me 3 times since she's been in Oklahoma. Yeah, she hasn't even gotten to move into her dorm yet. That's tomorrow. As for me, I'm turning my room inside out right now to get ready to move. I guess my little brother is moving into my room. That's all fine and dandy. I can't wait to get out. I'm tired of family being right next door, trying to get me to do stuff all the time. Luckily I had army this weekend, but as soon as I got home they were trying to grab me to work. Ugh... I don't mind every once in a while, but the second I walk in the door. It gets so frustrating.

So school starts the week after this one. Is everyone ready? I sure am. Especially since it's all paid for already for me. It's like I told one of my aunt's co-workers, I can't wait to stick my head in a book until December, so I stay out of trouble... HAHAHA!!! Oh that was funny. No, I'm gonna have fun with school and being moved out, and working my A off. Full-Time work, Full-Time school, and P-A-R-T-Y. Yeah Baby!!! Bring it on...

If this is Zion, then I'm scared of Hell...

It is too hot. You heard me, too hot. Granted, in the heart of Baghdad it is reaching the high 150's right now, but they deserve it. For peaceful America it is too hot. I hate it. I so want to live in Hawaii where the difference in temperature year round is 20 degrees (I'm with you Ellie). I spent all today in army clothes and I was sweating by 9 o'clock. In the morning. It's crazy. So I think we should make a petition to the great weather-maker to tone it down a little. As LDS people we don't like to suffer. We'll leave that to the Catholics. (I can make that joke because I'm a former Catholic and I understand the mechanics of pain for repentance.) So who's with me!?!?

My Sadness

Courtney is leaving today. I spent 5 and half hours with her last night. There were times where we just sat there and held each other. I'm gonna miss her so much.

So I'm sitting here on Army weekend, waiting for a train to pass. These weekends are not very fruitful anymore. We had a BBQ. Last night I didn't miss a whole lot. I'm so glad I convinced them to let me spend the time with Courtney. We were getting along again and it was so nice. We went to Applebee's and talked, then we went bowling. After that we went back to her house and spent our last hours together. She was in tears and I was close. Oh my. 9 months until she's back. Grrr...

In the meantime Ryan and I are a little over a week from moving into Parkway Crossing. It's hard to believe that we're actually doing it. I mean I went to Basic Training and War, he went on a mission, but this is really moving out. It's so different. WE'RE MOVING OUT!!! Hahaha. I just had to say that...

9 days...

What's It To Ya

Well, I see that people are lacking faith all around me, especially towards me. I swear that I am a good person. No matter my mistakes, I still hold myself to a standard. Why can't people realize that I have no hidden agenda, I have no reason to lie, so why lie to me? It's fruitless. I am who I am, no guile. Take me for who I am, because that is who I am. Think about it and give me a little faith.

What Now?

It is definitely transition time. I'm moving out in two weeks from yesterday, Ryan is sad because Megan is moving to Salt Lake, Courtney is leaving for Oklahoma, Ellie is back from Hawaii and school starts for all of us again. I just want to be over this transition. It's kinda stressful. I need rhythm, and right now rhythm has been thrown to the wind. Yikes-a-bee!

The Deal is Off!!!

I didn't get my car. So now the hunt resumes. I'm looking for another Mustang. Hopefully I'll find one, or I'll start looking for something else. And that is part of the fun.

There's No Buisness Like Show Buisness

So on Saturday I went up and found a Mustang convertible. It is an '01 Black Beauty. I loved it and in my excitement, I forgot that car salesman try to screw you. And they did. They told me that they dropped the price to 22,000 so I could make the payment range I wanted. Not only did they not do that, but the car is only worth 18,250 on the highest market rate. They tried to screw me. Luckily my co-signer is in Colorado, so I have all the paperwork. The downside is that I already swiped my card for the downpayment. So I'm on my way up there to re-negotiate or drop the deal. I'm hopping mad.

This weekend my mom came from Colorado. She arrived on Friday night and we caught up with each other. On Saturday we went car shopping and she did the whole Mustang experience with me and then we watched King Arthur. Sunday we went out to Utah Lake on my uncle's boat. It was the first time that my dad and mom had done something in 20 years. They usually just say hi and leave it at that. But we all went out and had a blast. I came back with sore muscles, a sunburn and a black eye. My mom got up on skis and skiied three times. She said it was so much fun because she didn't have worry about kids at all. I'm glad. She deserves a vacation every now and then.

I'll tell you how the car deal goes later.

Ellie

And so I got a text from Ellie yesterday and we've been texting quite a lot since then. A lot. I haven't texted one person so much since when I first met Courtney. It's made me realize how much I do miss her. She's so much fun and very crazy. I like that and I can't wait for her to come back from Hawaii so we can play again. Ugh, she's been gone too long. And I'm jealous that she's out there without me. I am gonna live there someday. And when I go there, I doubt I'll ever want to come back again. But until then, come home Ellie. It's playtime.

Who's My Daddy?

Okay. So for the past week Ryan has been bugging me about the top girl in my life. Truth be told I don't have one. My focus is definitely there, but I don't have an absolute focus. So because of this Ryan calls me a Player. Maybe I am, but I sure am honest about it.

Courtney - She's moving to Oklahoma and I am spending as much time with her as I can. I definitely feel love towards her. A canidate for marriage.

Christy - My best friend. I've shut down all my feelings for her. The thing about her is when she liked me, I could be in her eyes that I wasn't good enough for her. I cannot be looked down upon.

Savanna - Definitely a lot of interest on my part in her. The down side is that she has her own problems with a boy that she's been dating for a while. He's turned out to be an emotional leech and is stressing her out to the max. So I keep my distance, but she's so fun to flirt with. I don't know where she stands on liking me anyway.

Jayna - So far a one night fling. She hasn't even made an effort to call me. Don't know.

Hailey - My relationship with Hailey goes back to High School. We pretty much dated for over 2 years, but were never serious. When I wanted to get serious, she backed off because she was scared. Last December I started hanging out with her and she expressed interest in marrying me. It infuriated me and I cut her off. I didn't start talking to her again until March. We hang out about once a week. She is totally in love with me (according to Ryan who texted her a lot one night) so I don't know. I don't feel for her the way I did, and I don't think I ever will.

So this is where I stand. Courtney right now is number 1. But I have a feeling that Parkway Crossing is gonna change it all.

20 Days to Paradise.

"It disappoints me that you don't have enough faith in me to tell me the truth" - Chris to Courtney

Guidelines to maintaining a Relationship with Chris $

1. Don't Lie to Me. No matter how much you want to spare my feelings, no matter what it may cost, the cost is always higher if you lie. Even if it's a white lie. It makes me push away from you. I'll tell you if I don't want to hear it, but let me make the choice. Don't take my decision making abilities away from me. I'm a big boy and I've been around the block hundreds of times.

2. Don't Try to Make Me Jealous. This is infuriating. I would never try to make you jealous and I expect the same courtesy. Yes I am a flirt, but if you try to make me jealous, then I'm just gonna play you.

3. Don't Try to Control Me. If I truly like you, then I'm gonna want to be around you. But you have to realize that I have other people in my life, as do you, and I still want to maintain my ties with them. Don't try to manipulate me and make my schedule and other relationships the way you want them. I comprimise, but I don't become subdued.

4. No Guilt Trips. They don't work. Don't even try.

5. You Can't Change Me. I will change according to what I think is proper, not the way you'll want me to. Give me time, and you'll see that I am more than worth the wait.

These five things are very important. I tell girls these things right off. If you can't accept them then I don't think we'll have a future.

Mom

So I had my rough day on Sunday and I fired off an E-Mail to my mom. She called me the next day and asked me if she could come see me. She arrives on Friday. It will have been 908 days since I last saw her. February 9, 2003. 2 1/2 years. Missionaries don't even go that long without seeing their family. So I finally get to see her. It's gonna be nice...