My Disadvantage

There's a hole in my heart, and as the days go by, it's getting bigger and bigger. If it grows much more, I'm not gonna have a heart left. What is causing this huge hole is that I long to see my mother. I haven't seen her in almost 2 1/2 years. But I don't have the money to go out and see her and it's starting to wear me down. I want to see her so much. I hate being broke because I'm a lowly college student. It bugs me. I miss her so much. She came out to see right before I left for Iraq and that was it. February 10, 2003. I never thought that I would go that long without seeing my family. It's one thing for distant relatives, but this is my mom. I don't know what I'm going to do. I guess I'll manage. But it is so killing me.